It has been a long time...

Well I can hardly believe it has been two years since I have posted.  So many things, new jobs, lost jobs, wheelchairs and gaining mobility.  Losing weight and gaining weight.  

For Better or Worse

Well while somethings get better...like loving my new job, other things get worse like the home front. Not I do not mean crisis level worse...just slowly things are getting harder and harder to get done. The one I love is humble and hardworking. He is becoming more forgetful and needs to rest. He is 10 years my senior. I can see that it is going to be me to carry the load of the responsibilities for the rest of our lives just as I did through one of the most trying decades of my life. Oh Jehovah give me the strenghth and endurance to keep pur home in order. Help me win in my marriage. We have come so far.

Finally Starting to get better

A month ago I thought I might just have a heart attack, a nervous breakdown or crash the car because I was so sick, so stressed and my health was the worst it has ever been in my entire life. I'm still not out if the woods. I recently was diagnosed with sleep apnea.  I still have the malaise glaze brain fog but not too the horrendous degree it was in August and September. Thanks to Jehovah there is a great improvement in my sense of joy, regaining my happiness and coming out of a crippling bout of depression and anxiety. I am able to spend quality time with my family and go preaching with my Christian brothers and sisters more often . As my spiritual health improves so is my outlook on life. It was really terrible for such a long time to be suffering so. I really didn't know what it was going to do but now there's hope.

Two weeks ago before the summer session started I was violently ill. A horrible stomach virus...well it is back to attack me for a second time.  Wow all my strength just left me.  It is incredible.  I hurt all over.  Thank goodness for organic unsweetened applesauce and Sprite.  Good thing was I lost 7 lbs.  Bad thing is it is a lovely long weekend and I do not have enough energy to find my way out of a paper bag.  There is so much I would love to do right now, and many things that must be done and I just do not know how that will be.  I am praying for recovery back to better health.

Relief just cannot come fast enough.  I am in a battle for freedom and justice by decree.  Fortunately the law was on my side.  I just want to have time to heal.  There are so many wounds and I am so tired.  I cannot go on like this much longer.  I want my life back.  I want to smile again someday.  I want to laugh.  I want to have fun for no reason at all.  I want to be with my family, my family as much and as often as I can.  I have been wasting away in these four walls.  I should have said "No!" a long, long time ago.  I cannot undo the the damage done to me, but I can certainly move on and I plan on doing that.  I cannot wait to see who I am now, and who I will become free from the clutches of my worst enemy.  Evil so thick you could smell it.  Don't ever trust anyone who is only after whatever and whoever they can take advantage of.  There is something very wrong with people like that and you and I cannot make them any better.  That's for damn sure.

Way to go Dre from USF

Had a bit of a time trying to find a specialist that could really get me the repair job I needed for me personally.  I called everywhere in town and no one had anyone truly experienced to help me with my problem.  I finally talked to Dre at USF and told him this "If you were looking for someone to paint your car just the way you want it would you go first to Econo Paint of would you rather go to somewhere like 813?" Fortunately being from my neighborhood he got exactly what I was talking about.  Dre got me hooked up for the earliest appointment.  I am ready for the make over to begin.

My New Hero

https://www.facebook.com/ninjawarrior/videos/10152553621109395/

Kacy Catanzaro is the first woman to complete the qualifying course for American Ninja Warrior Dallas.

Long Vacation

This is where I am headed very soon for a long, well deserved vacation with no telephone calls, no text messages, meetings, reports to file, papers to grade, houses to clean, people to worry about.  I want to be as far away from that as I can.  I want to swim, lay out in sun and take a nice nap in a hammock in the shade of my palapa by the pool. Not a care in the world and no one to bother me.

Fly Away Lost Boys Living in a Fantasy World

Well here is a little word of advice to all the lost boys who do not want to grow up and face reality!
You eventually have to face that in the real world people have to work to support themselves, they have to work long and hard sometimes just to put food on the table and a roof over their head.  When you take these privileges that family life provide for granted you are burning your bridges with your own rebellion.  Eventually everyone grows tired of your immaturity and laziness and they show the door.  It is much better when a person has a direction in life and strives to meet personal goals.  When people wander for years in a stupor of ignorance and living in a search for pleasure only, never having to thank anyone, nor say sorry, nor show respect...eventually there will be severe consequences.  I wish you well Peter Pan.  "Back to life, back to reality"  (Soul 2 Soul)